“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me” Psalm 51:10
I have never been one to use profanity. But it was on the tip of my tongue. One of my high school students jumped up and threw his desk at me. It was all that I could do to keep from saying the most horrible things to that seventeen-year-old, six foot three young man. I was not intimidated. But I was furious! Everyday he would come to class and proceed to try to “run things.” It was one exhaustive power struggle with him after another. Very soon something started happening within me that did not feel so good. I started hating my student. That is when I knew I needed help. Each day my heart was turning darker and darker because I was allowing this child to take over my life with his hostility. Praying and asking God to give me a clean heart was my only answer. The Lord began to change my heart immediately. Each day my heart felt better and my spirit became steadfast. Eventually, by the end of the school year, this student apologized for calling me out of my name, disrupting my class and for throwing his desk at me. He admitted that he was trying to punish me because he hated his father. I was so busy working on the hatred in my heart; I had never considered that my student had hatred in his. So in my heart I prayed to God to give my student a clean heart as well and to renew his spirit. That is one of the hardest things in ministry for me; and that is to remember to consider and pray for the person who almost caused me to lose my own soul. Thank you Lord for healing me and thank you Lord for healing my student. .